Ever walked out of a fog and wondered how the hell to get back? Hullo, you there.do you have a map to Nowhere? I am in a hurry see?. I was there for a few monthsHulloooo? No I'm not kidding!wait! waitget back here
I think I might have a pretty good concept of how a newborn feels when it is rudely tossed into the world. First.creation from nothingness. Lulling about, the world is all about you. You are IT. You are the baby and you are safe and comfy in your warm little nest and you just know that its all right. You can kick and complain and thumb your nose at the world or, better yet, be oblivious to the world. Hell, you dont know the world, you dont remember the world...you are nothing, nobodyyou are your own warm little everything. You swim around in your own thoughts and giggle and kick the hell out of the one carrying for you and its alright. Cuz you da baby.
<*dv_2*> Then one day, while minding your own business, because face it, as a baby you are your own business, something happens. You start noticing little thingslike voices out thereout THEREbeyond your insular world. Heymaybe I'm not the center of the world. No that can't be true. Surely I am the center of the world. then you sleep. Lots of sleep and forget those sounds. Until next time.
<*dv_1*> You are curious about the noises . Muted car horns, the sound of breathing, screams and laughter., but what do they have to do with the your reality? Your life is floating and yawning and .WHAT THE HELL??? It happens!
You arefalling falling falling into a light. Bright light gremlin style. Waitwhat is that? Who is that? Where did all this come from? HeyPUT ME BACK!
YeahI can relate. I am sure you can too. Its like when something bad happens to you, right? You curl up and become the center of your own universe. Life happens around you but you are too busy trying to sleep and block out the rest of the world. After a while you convince yourself that you ARE the world. Everything that happens only happens to you. You nest and like your nestand though after a while you are curious about the outside sounds, you sleep.
Then.the light is turned on and FUCK do you have a headache. Heyturn off the light. Wait where did they come from? Its Spring? It cant be spring, I dont remember winter. You find yourself walking down the street wondering how to get back but in the process striding forward. Who says your only born once? Maybe I should look for a map to Somewhere instead?
TS Carr
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